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Songs from My Lonely Heart

Matti Kärki


Songs from My Lonely Heart - Matti Kärki This album is a collection of my songs dating back to the 90's. They all tell stories of my own experiences on being lonely, in love, and in relationships; the joys and sorrows that followed me.

I arranged the songs in my own style and taste of music. I played keyboards, guitars, and some bass. I also did backing vocals, composing, arranging, lyrics, recording, producing, mixing, and mastering. The whole deal! It has been a long and demanding project (2015-2018), and now I'm happy to share my music with you.

Hit the play button on the top left corner and sit back. If the player plays only 30s samples, please go to W3Schools

I wanted to give you more than just mp3's on some boring online music service. You can read the lyrics and short stories of the songs while listening to them. You find photos and videos here too.

If you would like to buy the album, it is available on the biggest online music shops, for example, Google Music Store or Amazon

If Spotify is out of order, you can use Youtube Music.

Endless Nights

Olli Rinne voc - Mikko Uola drums - Timo Mynttinen bass - Matti Kärki lyrics and music

Catching a dream is all I do
Worrying too much, I remember you
We had a chance, I threw it away
I'm asking for help, give me a chance again

I was so young, so ignorant too
You needed more, I couldn't give it to you
Now it's too late, I can see the end
I wanna live, I wanna give and I wanna love again

Endless are the nights when I think about my life
What did I say what did I do
Endless are the nights, I'm losing the fight
knowing I can't be in the past living it anymore

I can see myself talking to you
Healing the wounds, meeting someone new

There comes a time when I'm ready for you
I break my heart if I see you too soon
Waiting is all, just a means to an end
I wanna live, I wanna give and I wanna love again

Endless are the nights...

Sweet first love!! Went downhill almost from the day one, ha! It was too difficult for a young man to communicate and show feelings properly. Wounded heart plaqued me for years and made other romances more difficult. What if I'd get more disappointments and cuts in my heart.. It took years and years to get over it and grow from it. Now all is okay. There is more understanding instead of fear and uncertainty of a young person. That's how things happen.
"Get over it, and go downhill again!"

Stay with me

Briand Melanson voc - Kai Jokiaho drums - Timo Mynttinen bass - Matti Kärki lyrics and music

I could be your lover boy
I could be your handyman
Tell me whatever you want
I will do it the very best I can

If you're troubled I listen to you
If you're I'll pamper you
I can take you to a far away land
I will give my heart to your hand

Stay with me here tonight
And I prove my love to you
Stay with me here tonight
And my promises come true
You've got to stay

I could be the one
So much better than anyone
I can give you whatever you need
I will show you the true me

If you're troubled I listen to you
If you're ill I pamper you
I can take you to a far away land
I will give my heart to your hand

Stay with me here tonight...

Stay with me here tonight
And I prove it to you

How are your flirting skills? Everyone should take a basic level course of flirting in the teenage years. Showing off with a bit of humour is always a good thing. Let's not take things TOO seriously! Especially if you want things to happen fast, and you can take the initiative.
But can you accept someone flirting with you? It's okay to be charming.


Stay With Me Stay With Me Stay With Me

Our Night

Briand Melanson voc - Samir Geper drums - Timo Mynttinen bass - Matti Kärki lyrics and music

Candles burning
No more wine
I've been planning this all the time
I'm slowly learning
to make you smile
Everything else can wait a while
I get this feeling
I'd like to make you mine
But do you really want me to stay?

Let's make this our night
Let's make this our night
Oh you are my only light
When the candles burn down

There are no lies
In the flame in your eyes
It draws me closer
To feel your heat
And even closer
to your heart beat
You might stop me
But I know you play this game
Do you really want me to stay?

Flirting part two, for advanced players and also for those who are dead serious about finding a mate. Be brave! Take a chance! Don't be afraid of getting rejected! Even a glimpse of humour can take you to the home base. Or to the moon base.
Do you know the feeling when two people are getting closer and closer for the first time? How exciting that is! Who makes the first move? Will she/he follow or reject? The world stands still around you.

Faithful Man

Tommy Eriksson voc - Samir Geper drums - Timo Mynttinen bass - Matti Kärki lyrics and music

When she needed a helping hand she asked me to her place
to talk about the day she had
how it turned to be so great
I was fading away, hard to hear what she said
and saw myself being a fool again
In my misery I called her name
She looked at me eyes full of blame

I am her faithful man and fighting for our love
If she really knows me I can fly away like a dove
If I'm her faithful man my love should never die
What I feel inside should take her by surprise

When I told her I was down and misunderstood
she blamed herself and cried aloud
It didn't do much good
So I asked myself - do I just pretend
No sympathy, so is this the end?
In my agony I saw her tear
She looked at me eyes full of fear

Are we really on the same page?! Do you hear what I say?! Are we communicating back and forth?!
I can be yours only to a limit. You can be sure I do everything I can for the relationship. I am faithful till the end, but when the door loses behind us, it's bye-bye and have a good life. No turning back.
But hey, we tried, failed, and it's alright! That's LIFE!

Faithful Man Faithful Man Faithful Man

If You Look Into My Eyes

Matt Greco voc - Kimmo Kuittinen drums - Seppo Salmi bass - Matti Kärki lyrics and music

Another day another night
You've been trying to avoid me
If you could say what's on your mind
we would find our love in time

Something bad I have said made you crazy
I don't care who started the fight
Come on we can make it alright

Talk to me and listen to me
Hey girl, I give you my heart now and forever
Take my hand
Please understand
I'm a fool, if I let you go, now and forever
I don't want to be the man
who ran away and let you down
But I'm no Superman

If you look into my eyes you know I'm never gonna tell you more lies
If you listen to your heart you know I'm never gonna break it apart
If you look into my eyes you know I'm never gonna give you a bad time
If you listen to your heart you know I'm always gonna make you mine

You were going out with a guy
He was holding your hand
Tell me what's going on
Will you give us another chance?

See yourself
with someone else
You're a fool, it won't work, now or never
I'll always to be your man
I'll give you all I can
But I'm no Superman

Promises. Betrayal. Hopeless love. Desperation. You live them to a point where you could lose it completely! But still you are ready to go through them again and again for the sake of love.
You are just stupid!

If You Look Into My Eyes If You Look Into My Eyes

Dancing The Night Away

Matt Greco voc - Kai Jokiaho drums - Tomas Martin bass - Matti Kärki lyrics and music

The lady in blue
in the ball room
The band was playing loud
And the music made me smile

Dancing alone
She was on her own
The way she moved herself
froze me for a while

The most beautiful girl I've ever seen was dancing a heartbeat away

She was dancing away, dancing the night away
inside my heart
Dancing away till the end of night
She was dancing away, dancing the night away
to the beat of my heart
Dancing away till the morning light
Inside my heart

Her head on my shoulder
Whispers I told her
Her body next to mine at least in my mind

She gave me a smile
And watched me for a while
She was standing close to me
But I was too blind

Throughout my life she was the one I always wanted to find

She was dancing away, dancing the night away...

I've been waiting much too long
always alone and without love
I thought all my hope is gone
and I am done with my life
No love
But I found the lady in blue

She was dancing away, dancing the night away...
Only in my mind

I saw her dancing alone and I was floored! I forced myself to move closer and make a move. Wild fantasies were rolling in my mind.
I could almost feel her body against mine dancing the night away.
Maybe I was dreaming.
Only I know what happened in the end..

Shame In The Mirror

Matt Greco voc - Kimmo Kuittinen drums - Timo Mynttinen bass - Matti Kärki lyrics and music

If I died would you miss me?
If I fell would you lift me?
I can see you've been slowly drifting away
Is it me you wanted
Or some guy to have fun with
I can see your tracks in the dark from far away

What are the chances of pulling through again?
What are the chances of living on with pain?

Shame in the mirror
is breaking my heart
Why did I trust you?
Shame in mirror
is all I got
Why did I love you?
Shame in the mirror
No one can fail me like you do
Shame in the mirror
Why did you lie?

If I left you would you stop me?
If I asked you would you tell me?
I can see you've been cheating and running away from here
Is this all you can give me?
No love, no feelings
I can say this is really more that I can bear

What are the chances of finding love again
What are the chances of fighting till the end

How does it feel to be cheated on? You are still faithful like a dog. Someone is treating you like shit and you swallow it for the sake of love. How can you look at yourself in the mirror anymore?! Where did your self-worth go? You need to rediscover it or you'll never find what you're meant to have.

Shame In The Mirror Shame In The Mirror

Love To Give

Matti Kärki lyrics and music

I am changing
into someone you don't like
No more waging
The war is over with no fight

It doesn't matter what I say or do
I can't be good enough for you

Give me a memory to love
I'm holding on
But I've had enough

Your love to give
Is all I want
My love to give
Is all I got
Don't tell me now
It's gonna be alright

I am breaking
Gotta save the pieces now
No more faking
I need to heal myself somehow

I don't need these lies from you
Its only love that does me good
Give me a moment to find
My heart again
For this while

I want something. You want something. We all do.
What about giving?! If we could learn to give instead of demanding everything for ourselves we might have a chance for real love. Do you give love without expectations? Is it possible?
Try it!

Too Late Too Late

These Tears

Lou Curtis voc - Samir Geper drums and percussion - Matti Kärki lyrics and music

Here I am
looking through this dirty window
Wondering where you are tonight
Hoping you are feeling all right

I try again
to sleep without you
I remember our last night
how it ended up in terrible fight

Something happened along the way
It must have been something I said
But I don't wanna lie again
I'm gonna give you time
I'm gonna leave behind these tears

Here we are
fighting for ourselves again
Maybe you get under my skin
more than anyone has ever been

I don't know
how to leave this madness
Sweet lust and taste of blood
in the tears of viscous love

Something happened along the way...

I've been looking for a reason
to stay
I gave you all my love
and you know it after all these years

I was far away from her in a different country for a long time. Wondering what was going on and where we were going in our relationship. It was time for a pause and think about what happened.
Being alone made me realise that we don't belong together, and maybe we just shared an illusion of love.

These Tears These Tears

Angela

Matt Greco voc - Kai Jokiaho drums - Timo Mynttinen bass - Matti Kärki lyrics and music

Years ago I met you in Tuscany
You got me burning right away
Everything felt so good instantly
We had awesome seven days

Summer nights quiet love in the moonlight
Tender whispers of lust for a while
And you were gone

Angela
Do you know what you've done?
Angela
Turn around and just run back to me

You were my romance of a lifetime
Italian woman of my dreams
After all it was just playtime
But I was playing for keeps

I remember you in the evening sunshine
Where you are now there's no light
Only shadows of the night

Angela...

Angela you have been a mystery to me
Every night your face is haunting in my dreams
All those days are now only memories
Just memories

I never wanted to say
Goodbye go away!
Oh come back to me

Angela...
Angela come to the light from the dark
Angela will I ever feel our love in a summer night again

Holiday romance! I guess It's something that we all dream about. The romance might be a once in a lifetime experience, a memory you will cherish, but do you have the guts to make it happen? Are you up to the challence?

Angela Angela

Time For Letting Go

Simms voc - Kimmo Kuittinen drums - Timo Mynttinen bass - Gdaliy Garmiza sax - Matti Kärki lyrics and music

I don't wanna get close to you now
I know we start fighting somehow

I've been waiting for this day for a long long time
I 'm done with the play. Let's turn off the lights

It's time for letting go
It's time to live alone

The show is all over, I take a bow
No one is cheering, my head stays down

I can't play the clown. Not one more time
The final curtain comes down and we say goodbye

It's time for letting go
It's time to live alone
It's time for letting go
It's time to find my role

I want to get off the stage and find myself again
Can't wait to turn a new page and end all this pain

You know the feeling when you are done performing a play? The final curtain is down and you all have done your jobs. It's time to leave. What kind of memories will come up? Good or bad? Maybe mixed. The bitter sweet taste will always remain, even if you try spitting it out!

Dream Leave Me Alone

Briand Melanson voc - Jari Vireaho drums - Timo Mynttinen bass - Matti Kärki lyrics and music

I have a dream that I will find the one and only love,
a soulmate for me
I try to feel and live my life
sometimes in extremes
seeking possibilities

I've been making all my life empty promises
I've been telling myself it's all right
I've been turning every stone to find real happiness
I've been lonely in the darkness of the night
And now I say goodbye

Hey dream, leave me alone
cause never wanna feel the wounds you bring to me
cause I never wanna be disappointed endlessly

So lonely days and lonely nights slowly kill my heart
I can't take it any more
My life in tears is all behind
Is there true love?
Is it all that I live for?

I've been trying all my life to keep my promises
And every time I have to say goodbye
I've been turning every stone to find real happiness
I've been lonely in the darkness of the night
And now this dream will end

Hey dream, leave me alone...

Once again
blind faith is my faithful only friend
Who says that I will make it to the end
Just when I'm about to lose my mind again
the dream keeps on haunting me all night long

Hey dream, leave me alone

Finding someone with a deep connection, a true love, is difficult, but that was my dream. I cared for it so much that it started to haunt me. I need to break free and enjoy what I have.
Do you ever think what you have is enough? Or does your dream haunt you too?



Thanks for listening!



MATTI

I started learning the piano at the age of 6, because I wanted to become a composer. As a kid I made small classical piano compositions, nothing fancy, but I really got the kicks! Then I started learning the guitar in my teen years and later on studio work when I was 19 studying music full time. Very early, I knew music and arts will be my future. I used to hide my goosebumps when we listened to Ernesto Lecuona's music in my father's car. It was overwhelming for me. I always want to find that feeling in music. Sometimes I got lucky enough to experience it when I was making my own stuff during this project.
Since the 90's I have played in rock, blues, and pop bands, and I learned the craft of playing live in front of people. I have also been working on my own music in my home studio all the time. At the moment, I have a decent setup for recording and it is getting better.


In the 90's I composed music for music therapy. My album, "Vibrations", sold over 3000 copies and has been a popular tool in Finland among music therapists.
There are also many other projects where I have worked as a musician, technician, and producer.

Will I make a new AOR album? Definitely. I have 20+ new song ideas which are good in my opinion. I have started to work on these already. Maybe in 2020 you can hear my new stuff!!
I have also new ideas on my style of writing songs. I want to break the song forms and try different instrumentations. This will get together in a new acoustic album sometime in the future.

STUDIO

My homestudio has changed a lot during the project. Different rooms in my home, different locations in Helsinki/Vantaa, different configurations, different everything!

My most important gear is Genelec 1032A speakers. They allow me to record and mix transparently knowing it will sound good everywhere. I have also Focusrite ISA preamps, RME Fireface 802 audio interface, decent mics, good guitars, and a bass. I use Waves, Sonarworks, UAD, Amplitube, and SSL plugins. Most of the drumming on the album was recorded on my vintage Ludwig set. Kai Jokiaho recorded his parts in his own studio in Espoo, Briand Melanson in Canada, Matt Greco and Lou Curtis in USA, Simms in UK, Gdaliy in Russia, and Tomas in Sweden.




THE MUSICIANS

Fortunately, I got great musicians for the album. Thanks again guys!!




Some videos from the sessions with Samir, Kimmo, Timo and Mikko:


Special thanks to Anne and Dima for checking the lyrics!! And to Samir for friendship, production ideas, and support!!

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